Who am I to write about Grace? Honestly, I'm just a guy who was recently divorced who is looking for answers. 6 months ago I was coasting in life, not driven with a purpose, not looking to do anything much with my life. I was just stagnant.
My life changed when my wife said she wanted to divorce me. At first there was denial and disbelief on my part. As much as I didn't want it to happen - it did. It was finalized on March 20th, 2013 (Ironically, that was the first day of Spring). I was divorced after 17 1/2 years of marriage. We have 3 awesome kids who are still very much a part of my life - whom I am growing to love more and more each day.
I get to see them on weekends. During the week I am alone in an apartment. It's quiet, I don't have a TV or internet connection there - by choice. I'm not very sociable so I spend many evenings alone there. I go to bed early, I get up early. So, I read a lot, I read God's word and study what it says and I am getting excited about what I am finding and learning.
About a month after my wife told me she wanted a divorce I figured out that my life was more than just stagnant. It was wasting away. I had come to know God and Jesus Christ when I was a teenager, throughout my life there were some fleeting times that I was purposed in seeking God - but far many more times it was all about me - just looking out for me. In recent years I had become disinterested in God and His Word, not looking for or wanting anything more than a convenient relationship with Him.
But a funny thing happened when I lost what I knew was good (my family) and was now faced with a new life of loneliness and emptiness - I realized I was also lost from God. It took a few weeks to see how crappy my life had become. But I also realized God was right with me the whole time. I was the one who was lost, or more like, not looking for Him. He was waiting for me to come back to Him - and to experience His grace, like I never have before.
My life changed when I realized God's grace had never left me - I just wasn't wanting to experience it before. Now, that is changing since realizing this awesome grace of God is alive and ongoing. I have been overwhelmed by God's amazing grace at work in my life.
I am on a new, more purposed journey now. I am studying God's word and learning a ton. Some was familiar already, but mostly this is new. And it is so good to learn. To read. To study. To see at work. I have so much further to go in my journey towards God's grace - but as I walk, I am finding things that are just too good to keep to myself. I want to share them.
I pray that this blog may be an encouragement to those who read it - to those who just want to know more about God's grace, to live in it and rejoice in it. This blog is personal. It's about what I have been studying and learning as I move towards God's grace. It begins next post with my study of the usage of Grace in the Gospels of the New Testament.
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